I feel great again...never felt like this for a long time,now i can't let anything take me down again.I also lost 20lbs in the last 2 month's i think it's because i cut down on eating junk food and i started working out now.I lost some of my belly fat and my arm's are starting to look bigger now,and i think in about a month i'll look alot better.And i also started to finally get all my bill's paid off and i know i'll be out of debt by next month then i can move out of here and start a new life,i just want to be in a place where i can have peace and quite and be all by myself.I also quit being so cocky and let my ego go,i did that so i could get along with everybody.And work is going great...so far i never argued with anybody,and i like being the guy that doesn't know everything.It feel's like i've rebuilt myself from nothing...last month when hannah left me it felt like she took my heart and confidence and left me to die.That was the worst i've felt in a long long time and i don't even know how i still got up and looked for work and function like a normal person...i never thought anybody could strip me of my ego and confidence and almost break me.But she did...she meant that much to me.I do miss her and would like to be there for her but i want to start a better life for myself in a couple of month's and when i do start over again i don't know if i want to let anybody from my past into my new life.In the next 2 month's i want to be on my own and let all the thing's that bring me down go...i don't want to be on the computer all night like i do now and i just want to stick to myself.If hannah want's to be in my life i hope she talk's to me soon,i'm done trying to get in touch with her...i said i'm sorry and i did everything that i could do to prove it to her.If she is mad at me for deleting all of her wall post's and messages,it's only because i don't like looking at thing's that remind me of better time's...it just hurt's when i look at the past when time's were better.The next 2 month's should be interesting tho
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Me...Hekter
- Hekter81
- I am a cool guy that likes to work the graveyard shift at a gas station and argue with people at night
1 comment:
It's great that you've set up goals for yourself. Even the smallest goals (like getting up and functioning in a daily existence) is a major accomplishment.
In the short time that we spent together before I left, I didn't think you came off with an ego, just a real strong self-assurance. I don't know where you get that opinion.
I'm happy to read that you've picked yourself up a bit. I'll admit I was worried, and didn't know what to say, so I thought it best to just say nothing.
I am your friend, and always will be, so even though I may not show through sometimes, I'm always here.
:o)
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