Don't do this at home...i'm a pro at it

Almost 2 week's since i had a normal day,in those 2 week's i lost the 2 greatest ladies in my life.My mom is in william's lake and hannah is not even talking to me anymore,i still can't believe i could even get out and kinda still be normal.And my bill's are still so high and i'll be working for nothing for the next 2 month's,but i still like going to work...i find that weird.And our car broke down and i washed my T4's in the wash...so i can't do my taxes now.And i can't even get a good sleep now day's...i just walk around and act like i'm okay.The only thing's that are getting me thru this hard time is lot's of energy drink's and i'm smoking like crazy now and sleeping pill's...and t3's.I never wanted to touch t3's again...but in times like this it's the only thing that will help.I tried my hardest to do all the right thing's in the last 2 week's...but thing's just don't want to work out.Now all i can do is drink an energy drink and spark a smoke and take a t3 and act like i'm the greatest...atleast it get's me thru the day.