I am not who i used to be

There is a girl i knew since we were kid's,
we grew up together

she is the kinda girl that makes you want
to be all that you can

i feel like my old self again when i'm with her

but then i let myself turn into what i became
a couple of year's ago

a couple of year's ago i was liked and respected

because i was a great worker and a better friend

but then i got robbed at the gas station i worked
at,it felt like someone just stole a part of me

i was mad at the world because i looked after
people,i gave change to the homeless and helped
people that i didn't even know

and when i got robbed it felt like the world
let me down

i was a great worker for the gas station,but i
find out that my favorite boss is selling the store

it felt like everybody and everything just left me

after all that i didn't feel like working or couldn't
trust people

i'm not lazy,i like to work

i don't hate people,i want to fit in

but it seem's like i just can't do it

i felt like this for the longest time,untill i met
Hannah again

she makes me feel alive again,she makes me
want to change all my stupid way's and be a
better person

then i get mad at her because she want's to
go see some old roommate's

now she hate's me

if i could do thing's different,i would

i just was looking foward to hanging out
with her so much

that's all i look foward to...all week

i never called her any names or yelled
at her...i wouldn't do that to her

and now year's of friendship is over because
of this?

when i see other couples call each other
names and cheat on each other and still
talk with each other

it just hurt's so much,because there are
far worse people in this world and they
even get a second chance

and i don't

all i want is her,and i'll be normal again